The surreal reality of God

 God's work is an impossible dream. A dream that sees a place of justice, peace and loving relationship. A dream that we as Christians dream and believe in as we live out our lives worshiping God and moving towards Christ as we attempt to live the Christic life. This is as hyperbolic as the trunk in my eye as I poke around in yours for the minute speck, or as far fetched as seeing a Camel pass through the eye of a needle. Christ proposes just such an impossibility in Luke (18.25), an impossibility that is open to God's grace to transform and change to increase or decrease our response to God's love.

Throughout the scriptures there are these fantastical images portrayed as being what God is doing or what the Kingdom is like. The desert blooms and highways are put in straight and well maintained. What is God trying to tell us as we read these parables, stories, images, etc.? Everyday life seems to be somewhat of a let down if we think of these things being reality. They are dreams that someone else is having and have nothing to do with our own boring lives. If you go onto the net and search out modern surrealism, which of course is associated with Salvador Dali, you can see these dream like images coming to life. I particularly like the work of Eric Johansson and the changing perspectives of Rob Gonsalves, who takes an Escher like view of life that suspends our normal way of seeing.  In a way this is the view of life that the scriptures point us to. We are being asked to suspend our normal thought processes and enter into God's life fully. A life that upsets our traditional way of thinking, a life that we will turn away from if we cannot suspend our outlook on life, just as the young rich man cannot do in the Gospel.

What do we change the camel or the needle?

This is a life that gives up everything only to find that what we have given up returns to us in new, obscure and revitalising ways. This is what it means to answer that small insistent voice that is God. In listening for that voice we are too often overcome by our past and our pre-conceptions that have been built on the past. The young rich man is unable to overcome his past to which he clings. He is disappointed because he was looking for something that he could build on that was based on his past experiences. Christ calls him to let go of these preconceptions, just as God calls us to let go of our modern pre-conceptions as to what our 'parish is', what our 'mission' is, what our 'worship' is and even what our 'church' / 'diocese' / denomination' is. At this time we are being asked to change how we think about the Diocese and is something that we perhaps need to do not only here in NQ but also as a denominational church in Australia. We are asked and are being asked to radically shift our viewpoint from one that is centred on ourselves and how we perceive reality towards one that is centred not only in the other but also in God.

So the question that we should perhaps be asking is: do we change the camel or the needle? It really depends on what we think the camel or the needle is as to what we should change. If we think that the needle's eye represents the small opening that God is calling us from and into then it is most unlikely that we change this. We may not listen or we may not see or we could ignore this call but we cannot change this call on our lives. However, if the camel represents our own lives then it is we who have to change. Only by changing our perspective will be able to pass through the small event that God calls us into and beyond. It is our baggage and our perceptions of who we are and what God calls us to that need to change.  Not only in terms of our involvement in God's work but our involvement in life. 

We need to start seeing things from God's perspective, something that is very different  almost surreal, certainly not from our sheltered understanding of who we should be but God's understanding of who God wants us to be. We step from the desert that we have created into the new life that God has always wanted us to have. In order to do that we need to let go of our past and embrace the call that comes to us from the future, the call that comes from God. To see the green pastures of God's presence and the love with which he upholds us in our self imposed wilderness.

Knowing God means knowing not debating

 God states that the days are coming when we will not have to say "Know the Lord" but that we will have God present in our hearts in such a manner that we do not have to learn to know God but that we will KNOW God (Jer. 31:33-34). Yet, in every way we go about our Christian journey, we are always bearing in mind a need to teach ourselves and our communities to "Know God" and moan when that teaching does not happen. Unfortunately, because we have to a certain degree adopted a modern secular thinking when it comes to anything to do with religious value, we absent ourselves from the knowledge of God. It is a problematic for today as we are schooled not to believe in things that cannot be proved through the scientific method. Even then we argue about what the scientific method's results mean interpreting each and every data point to our advantage.

Stone and cold hearts are transformed by God's presence

In our faith lives many of us live in an in-between world of faith and science with neither really taking hold unless it suits our purposes. Much of the time we pride our selves in our presence at 'church' and make an assumption that we are profoundly faith driven as a result. To a certain extent we need to make an effort to contemplate the parable regarding the pharisee and the tax collector (Lk. 18:9-14). The difference in attitude displayed correlates quite well with the two attitudes in today's society. We either treat our religious life as an extension of secular society (i.e. as a commodity) or secreted away from everyone and not shown.  In the first case we believe that through a pious attitude our demands are to be met and anyone else who does not agree can go elsewhere seeking their own commodity religion. The other way is that we hide our faith and believe ourselves not worthy of God's attention bumbling through life not expecting anything and when grace comes our way we brush it off.

It is the humility of the tax collector, the despised person, that attracts Christ's comments with regards who is deemed worthy and grace filled in the sight of God. This is the person who has taken to heart the requirements that are laid out in scripture (reminding ourselves that for Christ and those writing in what we call the NT this means the Hebraic scriptures). In this case the tax collector has the law written within his heart as God prophesies in Jeremiah (31:33b) and is demonstrated by Christ for us. It is this state of being that we must portray or rather live into as we live our lives in our communities. We are too familiar with the attitude of the pharisee in this day and age with examples from within both the Anglican denomination and the wider faith world.

One of the truisms from the Gospel is how well it encapsulates the everyday life of human beings irrespective of the milieu in which we live or look at. We have this idea, today, that we should get something immediately and if it does not come we give up. However, if we persist with our asking, attempting, etc, we get to the end point. In the first part of Luke's 18th chapter there is a story of persistence ((1-8), which you might find strange in terms of what we are talking about. This story tells us that despite our despair about not getting it right immediately and turning away or being tempted into the situation of the pharisee should we persist in the manner of Christ we will eventually turn things about. We know that often times in life it is our persistence that pays off in the long term. We find that doing those things that are closer to God comes at a cost in today's world, a cost in negativity and despair, yet should we persist in being as Christ to the community it will in the end pay off, not only for us but also for the community in which we live as we begin to change attitudes and behaviours.  This is the gospel story being played out in our lives to the fulfilment of God's dreams.

Wearing masks rather than giving thanks

  It is often the case nowadays that the words 'please' and 'thank you' are forgotten in our normal standard conversations. If we then take that into the world of faith I believe that they went out the window a long time ago. Our prayers and our supplications often sound like demands of God rather than a seeking of God's grace to come into our lives and when that grace settles upon us we are too often either upset or astounded to ever think of giving thanks and praise. The leper had a deeper significance in the psyche of the Rabbinic interpretations than the straightforward interpretation we place on it today. Perhaps, when we look at the ten lepers in the story from Luke (17:11-19) we can look at it from the point of view of relationships and their worth within the eyes of faith.

Due to how we have consistently seen leprosy purely as the disease we find it difficult to think of it as an indication or analogy of dis-ease within our lives. A dis-ease that places us outside of the community through our lack or mis-understanding of the situation in which we find ourselves. Too often we feel ashamed of who we are as members of a faith group (2 Tim 1:8) and in not making ourselves known through thought, word and deed we suffer dis-ease in the world around us. We are masks that are worn so that people will not feel uncomfortable around us and accept us into their company. We are relying on our own wiles and ingenuity rather than allowing the grace of God to carry us in any situation that we can conceivably be placed into. We are dis-eased from our knowledge of God and Christ's presence in our lives to show a shadow of our selves to others. In doing so we begin to fall away from God and Christ as we take on the persona of the secular society in which we live and the glories of God fade from our lives.

Do you wear a mask or proclaim God's love?

We can only grow comfortable in our faith personas if we actually wear them continually and not the mask that we habit each day to face secular society. We seem to have lost the impetus that was there in the early part of the journey and have now come to a long lonely struggle as if we are going or are in exile. Like the Israelites in exile we mourn as no one comes to the faith being led astray from our purpose by the prophesies of the modern age (Jer. 29:8). We are perhaps not as vigorous in our defence or as prayerful as perhaps we should be not seeking and not knocking (Jer. 29:12-14). In our PC climate we seem to be unable to express our emotions and our absolute faith in claiming retribution against a culture that denies our very beliefs and faith. Yet, we too are to blame as we have sunk into a sort of semi-comatose posture when it comes to our faith journey, without joy and thanks for the endeavours that God has given to us however hard they appear to be. 

The thing that commands our attention at the end of the day is the outsider, the Samaritan leper, who turns back and is reconciled by giving thanks to God and Christ for his acceptance back into society. Yes, the leprosy is cleansed but it is much more than that it is an easing back into the embrace of God and the re-start of the lapsed faith journey. We give thanks for what God has done for us when we realise how badly we have fallen on the road by relying upon our own self indulgences and our own thoughts. We need to judge our own faith progress and not place obstacles in the way of others. Christ only requires that we fulfil the law and give thanks to God for his grace to come to us and cure us of our ills. We need to like the psalmist claim our joy to God (Ps 66:1) that despite being led astray by society God has led us into a new place. In thinking more broadly as a diocese, perhaps, we need to give thanks for the opportunity for repentance and metanoia that the receivership gives. In this way we too can bring joy into the lives of those seeking a new spiritual home. Let us give thanks to God for the grace that enables our lives to be filled with the truth of God's love for us and those we form community with. We change society violently with an aggressive love that tells only the truth and not the lies that society would have us believe. Only then can we begin to thank God for the resurgence in our faith that forms around a community that is filled with spiritual prayers and supplications living a life that is formed in Christ and not in our conception of the moral dimensions of human life.

Commitment to grow the seed of love

 Among those things which are of value for us as a community is our commitment and how our giving  / faith enables our structures to grow. This is all very well and good but for these things to happen we ourselves also need to grow. In Luke, Christ uses the mustard seed as an example of small to big (Lk 17.5-7). This is a perpetual journey in our lives it is not something that happens overnight. Often we can sow seeds into the ground and nothing appears to happen for months on end, it is only when conditions are right for the seed to grow that we begin to see signs of growth and plenitude.

God has planted a seed into each and every heart as God has fashioned us in his image. In our yearning for God we seek that presence which symbolises God in our lives. We yearn for God in the midst of worship and we attend that worship seeking for the smallest hint of God's presence. In seeking for that hint, the small voice that calls to us with an unending call, we are distracted by the larger needs of our selves. In the distraction, we seek for our own comfort demanding the things that we expect rather than the things that God calls us to. Moving into the distraction we turn our worship into a religious club that caters for our needs; by providing the servants who deliver what we want or expect rather than serving the other that calls to us. This behaviour leads to our seeing worship and the gathering of the community as an option, one of many, that happens at a set time. It is alright we do not have to come into community to rejoice and worship God. Our individuality is paramount and so we become isolated from the rich source of life that feeds the seed. This is tantamount to placing a seed on the shelf with the hope that it is going to grow without nutrition and the water of life.

Poor is our faith if it has not been nurtured or watered.

If we are to become fruitful and allow that seed that God planted to grow we need to ensure that it is fed. It is all well and good feeding the seed with good nutrition but if it is not worked in then it is not going to do anything. We may as well leave a lump of dry manure over the dry seed on the windowsill and still expect it to produce. For us to work the soil and the richness that feeds us means that we actually have to commit ourselves to a lifetime of work. Once we begin to commit ourselves to the labour that we are called into we begin to feed the seed that God has planted; we begin to work what we have been given. The commitment though has to be full, it cannot be half-hearted. We cannot make plans to fulfil God's promise by sitting back and belonging to a club which we attend because it gives us pleasure. We actually need to make sacrifices in our way of life to become more like Christ and reach out to the other. Our sacrifices need to be real, not a pittance out of the corner of our pockets but something that manifests in God's presence in the world.

Once we have committed ourselves and sacrificed our lives to becoming living sacrifices to God do we start to work the soil and bring the nutrition that the seed requires to grow. Dry soil though, however hard it is worked will not produce any crop, let alone one that will deliver 100 fold. So we need to water that soil with the water of our lives spilled into the rich soil of God's work in us. In giving our lives into and for the work that God has called us to we begin to bring the water that is life to the seed of hope that has been nurtured in the dry soil of our abandoned lives. Our lives filled with happiness, sadness, wrecked by anger and frustration; Our lives which we keep to ourselves and mourn over in the stillness of the night. It is here in our griefs, joys, frustrations, poverty, illness and health that the water of life for the seed of hope flows. Yet, we hold it in, we encamp around it, preventing this precious resource from ever leaving us, only to find that it stagnates and queers our lives rather than the plentitudinal harvest which comes when we squander it allowing it to flow into others desperate lives.

We fail to commit ourselves whole heartedly like living sacrifices as we pray at the end of our worship. We fail to commit ourselves to the path that God calls us along, we fail to give as the widow gave. We see ourselves as having cowardly spirits rather than the spirit that inspires power, love and self-discipline (2 Tim 1.7) and thus fail to give of ourselves to the other.  In deed I can but Lament along with Jeremiah (1.1):

How deserted lies the parish, once thronging with people! 

Once great within the Diocese, now become a widow; 

once queen among the deaneries now put to forced labour.

(Place any words you want in the verse to convey the lament for your own place)