Committed and honest in change

 So we have been called into ministry, great, so what now? If I am to minister to God's people what precisely am I meant to do? What drove those that Christ called to become followers and disciples of this unknown man? We know that ministry can be small and simple but sometimes it becomes so big that we are challenged by the enormity of the task. At other times the very fact that we have a ministry goes to our heads and we believe that ours is the most important or that ours should have precedence or ours is the thing that will save the church. (Reminder: Our call is not only one of ministry it is one of following and being discipled by Christ). No matter what position we find ourselves in or at what stage in our call into ministry we are at we need to remind ourselves some core facts when it comes to being a disciple particularly a disciple of Christ.

Perhaps the first thing, which is of most importance, is honesty. We no longer appreciate honesty within our lives. We create stories for ourselves of our lives and live them out within the bands of social media or our own little cliques. We need firstly to be honest with ourselves in terms of our call. If we are not struggling with being called into ministry and being a disciple then we have inevitably got something wrong. If we are unable to express our own doubts in an honest manner either to ourselves or to others then we are deceiving ourselves and are not true disciples. Just look at the stories of the disciples as they move and follow the Christ. From the first call we read in Matthew (4.15-ff) to the final scenes after the resurrection with Thomas.

Secondly, we have to be open to change. It is apparent from the first call of the disciples that eventually become Christ's apostolic messengers that they are expected to change their whole lives. They are asked to give up the occupations that they have and take on a significantly more challenging and different way of life. This automatically means a total upheaval in their domestic situation. Can you see Peter or John coming back from a day's fishing and saying to their wives and extended families "We can no longer support you. We have decided to follow this itinerant preacher through the lands of the Israelites." What sort of response do you think that got? Even if our call into ministry appears to be small...taking over as secretary...filling the role of treasurer...becoming a warden... it still means some form of change within your lives however small and however disruptive. Yet if we are true disciples of Christ, we must be prepared for change as the whole of Christ's message to us is a call to change from tradition into newness of life.

True discipleship changes our lives through honesty and commitment

Thirdly, there is a commitment that is made before God as we become disciples. I am not talking solely about our baptismal commitment but our commitment to God and to our community. If we cannot commit to being a disciple and to the ministry that we are called to then their is no point in answering the call. We may as well bury our heads in the sand and become rooted in place. Commitment means that we are prepared to sacrifice, we are prepared to ensure that there is no division within our community as a result of receiving a different call or a different understanding (1 Cor. 1.10- ff.). We are all called by God into discipleship and ministry on answering that call we should commit ourselves to Christ's presence in our hearts and lives. We cannot create division within our extended communities and say we are Christian and followers of Christ. Christ's call and our ministry is towards reconciliation between ourselves and between ourselves and God. It is a call towards a community that is built on diversity of skills and people who each are committed as disciples of Christ. This is the call that makes a community and a nation functional in looking after its people from the first to the last.

Only when we are prepared to change and be honest in our commitments towards God's people can we truly call ourselves disciples of Christ. Our issue is often a failure in one of these three areas.

Question for question a challenge

  John's Gospel has Christ asking the two disciples of John the Baptist 'What are you looking for?' with what appears to be a non-sequitur response 'Where are you staying?' (Jn 1.38). A question answered with a question with no real answer from the disciples.  Yet the question remains and is something for us to consider today and within the context of our own society.  I have moved multiple times and am intrigued by the disciples' answer. As I consider their response I remind myself that while I am sometimes removed from the flow of society around me I am still connected to the Church and the concerns of the Body of Christ. In being disrupted in our place of living we can perhaps bring to mind this question and focus on it in the context of where we consider our place of living to be.

The question posed is: what are you looking for? In life we are constantly looking for something to fulfil our needs.  If we were to answer this question then our answers would probably revolve around our needs and those perhaps of our families.  The you is personal it creeps into the spaces  of our need and highlights them to our mind.  We think of our housing, our work circumstances, our children, our social standing, etc.  We would consider these as our needs; we would think that perhaps these are the things we are looking for to fulfil our lives in the modern world.  What about the question in terms of our religiosity, our faith, our denomination / church / community in which we worship? Here we conceive of our mission in the world, our ministry to each other and those who are less fortunate.  We look at those less fortunate, the orphan, the widow, the exile, the immigrant and stranger; we designate an other who is not of us to whom we are called to bring our faith, our God, our ways of doing things to achieve fulfilment and the end of our desire.  Is this then what we seek, the perfect way to bring the Gospel to all people throughout the earth in fulfilment of God's commandment?  Is this the answer to Christ's question?

The incipient disciples answer strangely with an alternate question; where are you staying?  This appears to be a frivolous question in response to Christ. Let us come and see where your living, that's what we are looking for.  Just to see where this person is living, a cave, a hovel, a palace.  No great desires for food or fancy goods.  No desires for peace in the world or a community of love and acceptance.  This is really odd to seek a place of abode. Yet, if we look at it purposely and with deeper understanding is this not the absolute answer to Christ's question to us.  If we are truly looking for something within our own faith and religious journey is it not just this to find Christ's abode.  We are not looking for a trivial house or palace or campsite in the wilderness we are seeking where Christ is living.  We are looking for signs of Christ's presence in ourselves and in those around us as a community.  It is the presence of God in Christ that is our daily task to find and worship; to become a part of and not to become excluded from.

We are not looking for an ideal home but for Christ's abode in the community

In going out into the world as part of our faith journey we are perpetually sent to find Christ's abode. Christ shows his disciples where he lives through the scriptures and in our hearts as we interact with the people of the world.  In discovering where Christ's abode is we are discovering the end of the question that Christ asks us.  In finding Christ we are in finding that which we are seeking for fulfilment.  We often misinterpret what we are looking for to find fulfilment as we have been taught to find it within the auspices of modern society and life. Only when we truly discover what it is that we are looking for is when we truly find the hope of Christ in our lives.  We accept what we think we want without looking further as our needs are surface orientated.  Christian's seek for a deeper foundation that brings hope to a community.

Bringing hope to the world

  As we come out from the season of Christmas into the New Year what are we expecting and what do we wish for in terms of our Christian and faith journey? and are these the same?  This is perhaps a question that we do not often put to ourselves and indeed we automatically assume that they are the same.  The initiation of our faith and Christian journey is in baptism and on this last day of the Christmas season we celebrate the baptism of Christ by John. In doing so, we could perhaps see this as indicating the complete connection between the two events.  Yet, our baptism is the baptism in Christ who has died whereas Christ's baptism is the baptism of John who was re-initiating the covenant of God in the hearts of those who came to him.  Indeed, John sought Christ's baptism (Matt 3.14).  Christ's own journey into God's presence begins here with John's baptism, as it is Christ who sees and Christ who hears (Matt. 3.16-17), a journey that drives him into the desert places.  A drive outwards not inwards, not simply into the desert and the solitude of the self but also eventually into society.  Towards God in community not simply and only inwards towards God in solitude.

Let our faith journeys be lights in the world.

The community of the people of God are given a sign of hope in the coming of God's servant (Is. 42. 1-7).  A hope that extends not just to Israel as God's chosen people, but to 'all nations' (Is. 42.1b).  This is a journey that is extended away from the personal into the community of the world no matter where that belief in God is found.  This is perhaps the one thing that we tend to forget in our exuberance of bringing the Good News to the world.  We focus on baptising everyone rather than bringing the Good News.  Jesus asks for baptism, the child's parents ask for baptism of the child, the confirmation candidate asks for their confirmation.  We are commissioned by God to go out into the world.  The world came to Christ in the Magi and Christ went into the world to give and proclaim the good news.  Our focus is and always should be the demonstration and proclamation in all we do as to what the good news is rather than on proclaiming our own spiritual journey.  Christ's spiritual journey drives him out away from the crowds but his proclamation of the good news and God's Kingdom drives him in towards community.

We are reminded of this outward pull by Peter in Acts as he to comes to the realisation that God is not confined to the rules of man but to the compassion of God for all people (Acts 10.34).  Our faith journey is our discovery of God within ourselves while our Christian journey drives us into community accepting all as part of God.  It is in this realisation that we find the hope of God's kingdom.  In proclaiming our faith we need to involve ourselves with all people not just with those who are 'Christian'.  We misunderstand our role in God's Kingdom when we look just to bring our personal views into fruition.  It is God who enables those who want Baptism to come to God and ask as part of their spiritual journey.  As Christians we are called to set the example that will enable those not baptised to seek baptism not play favourites.  If we do not set that example how can we expect people to come to God and choose that commitment?  If we are unable to do God's works of justice, righteousness and peace in the community how do we expect people to see God?  In another place in scripture the disciples say that they should stop someone, who is not a part of them, who is doing good works but Christ says if they are not against us they are with us. Can we deny those who are not baptised their right to do what God has asked for in doing God's work? Perhaps they are closer to God then we are on our own journey.  We are asked to grow both as Christians and within our personal spiritual journey towards God, this may not be quite the same thing.  Let us bring hope not build divisions; cultivate love and not destroy in hatred.  Christ went into the world and so also should we.

The gift of choice - an Epiphany

I am often stunned by the fact that as Anglicans we often stick to tradition above everything else in our lives. If we think about many parishes throughout the world I would suggest that many of them if not all of them are obstreperous in holding on to what they see as tradition. If it is not the pew that grandma sat in its the pulpit that was created in the 18th century that is so monstrous that it is a carved relic of note that we cling to and make the priest ascend. Indeed, it has been said that you do something for two weeks it becomes a tradition that cannot be undone in the Anglican church. In our attention on miniscule horrors of antiquity we ignore the world around us and the various interests that would bring us down slaughtering our beliefs. We also ignore the presence of God in our midst and the directions of God to go another way (Matt. 2:12).

The gifts that the wise men bring to the Christ Child remind us that our mortality is tied to power, faith and mortality itself. In other words we can grow through power and authority, faith and our sense of wonder but we are curtailed by our own mortality. No matter how much power we have it will come to an end with our deaths, which means that in the end it is not of much use to ourselves but for a brief period. Most of that period is one that is of struggle to either gain the power we want or to retain it once we have it. Gold is also very symbolic of our desires that are deep and abiding. Desires that lead us away from God or are put  in place of the deep desire that God has for us as we cannot comprehend nor accept the burning love that is God and like the Israelites before we must turn away to obtain that which is easier to obtain.

The lures of the world around us that prevent us from seeing God

Of course a burning desire for God can also change how we perceive our reality as the second gift aptly illustrates. The incense of desire that flows towards what we imagine is God but is solely our imagination rather than the true interaction with the God with us. It is our desire for something more than that which is intangible. We chase after our dreams found in the various alternative 'spiritual' paths that are on offer in the world today. The pursuit of which simply burns out and curtails our ability to commune deeply and personally within our lives with God as shown by the developing mystery of Christ in his life. Both of these paths eventually lead to death not only our mortal deaths but our spiritual deaths as well. Indeed death is something we continue to shy away from within our own lives as we euphemistically refer to it as "passing on" or "lost" or other words that divorce us from the reality of death that leads into newness of life that Christ again shows on the cross.  

Are these then the choices that we have? or as God directs the wisemen into another way is there such a way for us that confounds our desires and needs whilst placing us before God? A way that incorporates all our desires and dreams without overwhelming and scaring us away. The way has been proclaimed to those that were not the first inheritors of God's presence and who turned away from the deep desires of God at Sinai (Eph 3:5-6). In doing so the desires of God are no longer things to be wary of and afraid of but rather to embrace above and beyond the world's gifts. They are not things that we have to search for but are given to us if we were but to open our hearts to God's presence and listen with all our being to God's guidance and direction. In doing so the cravings that come for power and authority through the medium of gold have no call upon us as God provides what we need. In placing God's presence firmly in our hearts we no longer have to go searching for the myriad dreams that our egos provide for us as the transcendence of God is ever present. We no longer fear but rather embrace death as part and parcel of life as Christ through his life changed how we perceive death.

Only when we acknowledge these, does the alternate path become visible as we strive to follow where Christ leads. This is a change of view, a change of thinking and a change of our relationship to God the incarnate one the other who is us. We who live in darkness (Is. 60:2)  can then discern the great light that changes us and our lives into a light for the community beckoning us into new beginnings and new lives.