Doubt is good

 Perhaps we should call this Sunday doubting Sunday as we come once again to hear the readings of "Doubting Thomas" from John's Gospel as it shows us an understanding of the presence of doubt in our own faith journey. If we read the story over I wonder if we still think that Thomas doubted at all but rather was slower than the others to believe.  After all they had the luxury of having seen the risen Christ.  Was their doubt just as marked as Thomas's when the women reported the emptiness of the tomb?

The question to ask is: Did Thomas reach out and touch Christ's side?  I think most people today would say that he did but John has a gap here in the text which we have presumptively filled with Thomas touching the Christ.  A presumption that has come from the art work of painters such as Caravaggio who portrays Thomas's finger thrust into the wound.  Perhaps it is the one thing that in this day and age we would all prefer.  Scientific method and the precepts of science have taken us down this route of physical evidence.  We cannot believe anything today unless it has been scientifically proven.  If Christ was to appear before us we would demand evidence.  A biopsy so that the tissue could be analysed.  An MRI or an X-ray would let us know more about the body, the risen body of Christ.  Doctors and scientists would have to lay out the physical evidence before their peers and we would then be satisfied that what we saw was indeed the risen Christ.

Caravaggio's painting of Thomas and the risen Christ.  Do we need to physically touch to believe?

Thomas and the disciples do none of these.  They believe when they see.  If we cannot have the physical evidence then perhaps the visual is the next best thing.  All the other disciples saw Christ so why can't Thomas not believe, he didn't.  Would you?  Is your belief such that if a person told you that they had seen the risen Christ you would without hesitation say yes I believe you?  Especially under the circumstances of having known he was buried.  Much the same as if someone told you that they had seen Princess Diana or Nelson Mandela within hours of their burial / funeral.  They do say that seeing is believing but nowadays even that is not true.  We have so many wonderful programmes on the computer that can doctor the photograph that you took.  On Facebook I have seen people's faces on various animals as people have toyed with these various programmes.  Do we really believe now what is shown to us in a photograph?  So for us is seeing believing or would we want to devolve down to touch as Thomas asked?

The disciples were told by the women that the tomb was empty (Luke) and indeed that Mary had spoken with the risen Lord (John).  Yet, the disciples did not believe.  It is almost as if there is another hole in the readings, a gap, where nothing happens until the Disciples see the risen Christ.  Even Mary does not really believe until she has spoken with the Christ.  Most of them are either totally disbelieving or unconcerned as if there is an air of unreality drifting over them.  Collective hallucinations as a result of their grief rather than an understanding of God working in the world in the presence of Christ.  If someone told you that a bomb had gone of in the middle of Sydney, would you believe them or think it was an April fools joke after the fact.  You would want to see it on News 24 or some other media circus or at least corroboration from a multiple of sources.  Truth telling has long since disappeared from the public arena such that we can believe what we hear.

In this day and age doubt has a place in our faith journey.  Doubt sows the seed of inquiry as we begin our journey in faith.  A child who comes to baptism today is a person who has been born into a world filled with certainties that are presented to them  through touch and sight.  Through physical provability and confidence in their senses. The sciences will aid them in understanding the physical world in which they live and come to maturity in.  A world that has placed its reliance on the measurement and categorisation of the world around us and is sceptical of that which is unseen and non-physical.  We are asking their parents and God parents to bring them up in faith.  To draw them into a development of that which can not be measured and categorised.  In this age of science they have a profoundly difficult undertaking, as they are asked to develop in a young child of God an ability which even we find hard to hold.  The ability to believe in something that is not able to be encompassed by our methods of proof. This is not an easy task as we all know for we are all guilty of some level of doubt in our lives.  If handled correctly however our doubt can be transformed into a faith that is as compelling as the disciples on seeing the risen Christ.  We may not have the assurance of the visual confirmation that they had of the risen Christ but we will have a growing knowledge that God is part of our journey as our doubts are answered.  We are asked to come to an understanding of God's presence in our lives that is not confirmed by our senses but is confirmed by our belief in a risen Christ.

Hearing Thomas' doubt we can see ourselves.  Hearing Thomas' words to the risen Christ we need to see the trajectory of our faith and the fulfilment of Christ in our lives.  We may be filled with doubt but our goal is in the faith that we hear Thomas enunciate. "My Lord, My God"

The risen life

 Christ is risen, he is risen indeed! Once more we have come to the space and time of celebrating the risen Christ, once more we come to celebrate the risen life. Each time that we do so we rededicate our lives to the promises that are made at baptism. Promises that commit ourselves to looking forward to a future that is filled with the truth and veracity of Christ within our lives. This is an important time for us as Christians and it is a time that should be filled with hope and joy for a fulfilment of the new life that comes with Christ. Too often though it is a time of despair and futility as we contemplate in our hearts our lacks and our inability to change from year to year creating a fugue in our hearts and souls.

This however is a time of rejoicing, our introspection should have been undertaken as we approached the cross initially. Now in the joy of seeing our risen Lord we need to acknowledge our own death so that we also can rise with Christ. What we should not do is go looking into the past that is dead to us to find the newness in life that is promised by Christ in his resurrection. Christ comes to us from the future not the past and in coming to us from the future we accept him into our lives knowing and abetting the change that this brings. We celebrate the burning away of the dead wood as we light the new fire, the fire of the Spirit in our lives as we move forward on the journey to the risen life. We pass through baptism acknowledging that we will live in truth and in Christ.

Let us not search amongst the dead and the past where they reside

In passing through the waters of death we can once more rise again leaving those things behind that belong in the past and celebrate the life that Christ gives us in the NOW. How can we find the good life in the past when Christ comes from the future? In our renewal of vows taken by our godparents on our behalf, and ourselves when we came to confirmation, we reaffirm our purpose and close ourselves of to the past. In passing through the waters we pass from death, that is now past, to a new life which is in Christ, the future. If we renege on these vows we deny Christ and look to death for our self knowledge. Only when we accept the death of ourselves in the waters of baptism do we begin to live in newness of life.

We celebrate today in the present. We allow the past to die. We begin a new life in the future with Christ. In celebrating today we need to place all our effort into fulfilling the vows that we take. Only in allowing ourselves to die will we begin to rise into something different. Unfortunately for many today this will be an exercise in futility as we do not wish to die. The horror that we feel is present in death is persuasive and denies us the support that we need to fulfil Christ's promise. In our denial we loose our rebirth and are unable to become as Christ as we bring with us the sins of the past. We immediately forget the words at the beginning of each service and the light that is re-lit at dawn, Christ is risen, he is risen indeed!

The other side of passion

  What do we think of when we think of passion and in particular when it has "the" in front of it? In some respects our understanding of passion and the Passion can become confused. In everyday usage when we consider passion we look at examples that are predicated on joy and a surfeit of or abundance of emotion. We are engaged in passionate sex or we engage our passions. Of course some of those joys and things we pursue are not desirable for the majority but more often the case we are looking at something that consumes are very being. However, when we capitalise it and put the in front of it, especially as Christians, we begin to think of Christ and the Sunday before Easter. A Sunday that traditionally calls for the reading of  the Passion, which is the full story of Christ's sacrifice on the cross. At this point we ponder the connection between what we know as passion and what the connection is with Christ's agonising decisions and consequences? There does not seem for us to be a connection between the two.

Theologically speaking in terms of the Passion we are driven to think in terms of its original usage which comes to us from the Latin passionem or the nominative form passio which means to suffer, or endure an experience. It is not about the nature of the experience it is about our resilience and our ability to endure all things and in the case of Christ it is his ability to endure the decisions that lead to the cross. Our understanding of the word passion in everyday usage does not come from this source but from the Middle English rendition to desire with strong emotion, arising from the Greek pathos and being popularised in the 1600s through into the 1700s. In some respects we all have to endure our passions or our lack of ability to indulge in them, so there is perhaps a bit of a connection there. However, it is in the original that we must focus especially at this time of year when we approach the celebration of new life at Easter.

Finding your passion is hard - allowing yourself to begin the journey is harder

We have, if we have been true to our Lenten journey, endured our time of fast to prepare ourselves for this coming week and its culmination in the risen Christ we celebrate at Easter. In some respects Lent should be for us a mirror of the last week and be our own passion. However, we seldom take these things of Lent seriously for this to occur. Perhaps though if we were serious and passionate in rendering our Lenten season into our daily lives, so that we too can be resurrected to new life, we should consider the words I state at the start of the journey. These words I convey in various ways on Ash Wednesday "What we do in Lent should be a preparation for the rest of our lives. Thus, if we give up chocolate, then the trial of Lent makes the resisting chocolate for the rest of our lives easier to achieve". In this way we select what we give or take up over the Lenten period and allow it to become a passion, a trial, and our passion for new life. Christ in his passion gives up ongoing life for himself in preference of new life through the agony of the cross for us; can we not offer a little agony in ourselves for the betterment of our lives or are we too self absorbed to see that this may change the way we think?

I have been re-reading Frank Herbert's Dune series and something from there strikes me as appropriate in this moment as we seek for Christ's passion in our lives but are fearful of the change that that will bring. Herbert writes "We do not want our ideas changed. We feel threatened by such demands. 'I already know the important things!' we say. Then Change comes and throws our old ideas away". In some ways this is what Christ does to and for us as Christ is the great Changer in our lives. Lent for us should be about change in our lives as we move towards the greatest change that Christ gave to us; New Life. Yet, we stumble at the first hurdle, we are unable to join Christ in his passion even if we have had the whole of Lent to prepare because we fear that change and what its consequences will be for our lives. This is our passion the one that Christ understood in Gethsemane, our fear of change that must and should be embraced. If we do not then we become belligerent in our fears like Putin and Trump. We become stagnated without true hope for the future like many modern politicians who live solely in the past. Today, we face Christ Passion in the reading of the Gospel but can we face our own Passion and follow Christ into newness of life?

Judas economics

 Economics is at the top of our news cycle with the imposition of various tariffs and their effects from the Trumpian dream book. Much like Judas, this appears to be our most prevalent way of looking at what it means to have and to be part of the human race. It is in reality a question of outlook as the Gospel passage from John points out (Jn 12.3-8). The cost of the perfumed oil that was used by Mary and its usage. From Mary's point of view she has given what she can to the fullest possible extent. The oil, which had probably been saved up over a long time to be used sparingly, was poured with generosity over Christ's feet. Perhaps, like many of us Judas watching from the side lines has a different view: greater use could have been attained especially if the asset had been turned into cash rather than poured down the drain so to speak. This question is one that sits close to our hearts during Lent as it is a question that we need to wrestle with in applying it to not only material assets but to our spiritual wealth as well.

To reach out in compassion is the beginning of community and openness to the other

How are we to react when it comes to the use of the assets that we posses both personal and corporate? Is it for us to determine the expenditure? Are are we to follow Christ in our compassionate outpouring of all we have towards those who are in need? The Judas effect is the one that perhaps we adopt rather than that of Mary in the Gospel story. The asset is to be taken by ourselves and used for what we believe is to be the greater good. Christ says famously here that the 'poor are always with us' suggesting that there is little that we can do in the present time to alleviate something that is constantly there but rather to pour our wealth out in worship and acknowledgement of Christ or rather God. Yes, there is very little we can do to alleviate the poverty of the nations until such time as we can alleviate the poverty that is inherent within ourselves. Both ways have there faults built in. Judas was by no means an innocent in this conversation. It is inherent in the passage that Judas meant to utilise the money for himself not in the alleviation of the surrounding poverty both material and spiritual. We ourselves become side tracked often so that we spend everything that there is in chasing our own dreams and desires rather than using what has been freely given to the worship of God and following God's requirements.

In holding on to our own wealth of time, talent, finance, worship, etc. we withhold the opportunity of those who are not imbued with these to experience God's presence and love. In facing our own desires in this Lenten period we need to face our tendency to be as Judas, hoarding for ourselves and our wants. We often do not see compassion as a response and we withhold our  compassionate response. In the Isaiah passage God says that even in the desert God will provide something new (Is 43.18-19) while we harbour our thoughts in the past. Compassion asks us to open our hearts to those around us and leave of the things that we are doing for ourselves. Leave the Judas mindset behind and allow something new to happen as we interact with compassion. We can claim anything in terms of how good we are, just as Paul does (Phil. 3.4-6), but in the end unless we write our assets of to God's presence in our lives we are nothing.

Mary's attitude is just this letting go of everything to allow the compassion of God and the love of God to reside within ourselves. In this manner we think not of our own wants and needs but we let go and open our hearts to the other. Only when we allow this to happen do we begin to see the new life of God and create the compassionate community that does not allow the poor to exist. It is our own thoughts that disabuse others as we do not open ourselves to the suffering that is around us.